Her story came across my FaceBook feed. A young Mom decided to place her newborn with an adoptive couple. I can’t recall the details but I can recall how difficult the decision was for her. How heartbreaking for her. She used this phrase in her testimony to describe her role as her newborn son’s Mother “I need to be the embodiment of unconditional love to him.”
And to me this describes exactly what being a Mother means.
Constantly, we are asked to set aside our wants and sometimes needs to take care of our children.
We give up our sleep, our time, our ambitions and our bodies for seasons just for them.
As Moms, we have times when we are driven to dig deep; deeper than ourselves.
In the book of 1 Kings Chapter 3 verses 16-28, we see two Moms of similar lifestyles, act in very different ways. Both women had babies at the same time. One baby died and both claimed the living baby as their own. Wise King Solomon was asked to make a decision. Whose baby was it? Both adamantly claimed the child. The King’s response was terrifying, ‘Then the king said, “Bring me a sword.” So they brought a sword for the king. He then gave an order: “Cut the living child in two and give half to one and half to the other.”’ 1 Kings 3:24 & 25
I have had some significant moments in my Mothering journey where digging deep beyond me has happened.
Like the Mom in 1 Kings, I’ve had to totally surrender for my child ‘The woman whose son was alive was deeply moved out of love for her son and said to the king, “Please, my lord, give her the living baby! Don’t kill him!” 1 Kings 3:26
Years of infertility; remaining barren. A surrendering that was God’s will for us.
A failed adoption.
A decision to foster our daugthers forever if that’s what they needed; if that’s what was decided.
Saying good-bye to our foster children.
In each moment, I’ve had to place the needs of each of our children above the wants of my heart.
It’s what we do, as Mamas.
Our love for them is not conditional. We are being the embodiment of unconditional love.
And in these moments, I have never had what it takes. It’s bigger than me. In these times, I am the closest to my God. Being a Mom drives me to my need for God. And He never fails for He knows and has given such Sacrifice for me.
God bless you and yours, Mama!! Never forget you are never alone!! Love you!!