They say it can take brief seconds before someone begins to drown. Water is swallowed and the larynx goes into spasm and with not enough oxygen in the bloodstream, the last breath is taken.
Life circumstances can feel like that.
And as we try to tread water in the everyday, we stay close to the shore, never thinking to venture into the deep and vast Ocean.
Whenever I share with someone that we foster, almost every. single. time. the response is something similar to, “I could never do that!” “I could never let them go.” “I don’t know how you do it.”
Let me set the record straight. I am not super human. I do not have a super power that helps us to let our precious ones go without it hurting deeply. Neither do I hold back. I don’t hold back my love for them; only giving them 50% so it won’t hurt so much when they leave for their forever home. Nor do my husband or our two incredible daughters. We love 100%.
Simply, we have responded to the Lord’s calling on our family’s life and trudge everyday into a vast unknown.
Undoubtedly, and amazingly, WE have been blessed (and all this overused word implies) way more than we are a blessing.
I question it too. Don’t get me wrong.
When the time comes for this beautiful one to leave us, I wonder if I am going to make it? If we as a family will sink? If we’ll ever do it again?
A Truth has recently been revealed to me, if God has called me to do this, He will not let me be overwhelmed.
He did not ask us to consider this so we would fail; be overcome or devastated.
So when grief tries to sink me, I feel it. I talk about it. I cover it in prayer and ask others to pray for us. I go to His holy Word and His Scriptures of comfort and His love for me. And I grasp, with white knuckles onto my Life Preserver.
What is your Ocean?
Consider the lie that has anchored you to shore.
Consider that it’s possible for YOU to walk on water; holding Jesus’ hand. Living life abundantly!
“Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him, “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” Matthew 14: 29-31