Toddlers learning to stand and walk can fall time and time again and get right back up. They don’t even seem to notice it’s a fall but rather learn from what went wrong and set out even more determined than the time before. But as adults, once we stumble we tend to give in, sum it up as a failure and stay right where we landed.
It makes sense really. Life happens and in big ways. Reality sets in and the weight of it all settles on us. Add a family with dependents; our precious ones in the mix and our failures and defeats are more than just a bump on the bottom.
As a Mama, I have many regrets. I wished I had done some things differently. I certainly would love to take back some words spewed. And if I let myself dwell on these mistakes I become entangled and ensnared by them.
When I was spiritually younger that’s exactly what sometimes happened. I had a tendency to believe in the hopelessness of my Mama skills; not seeing these mistakes as mercy-filled learning opportunities. Instead I believed time and time again with each mistake that I was not cut out to be a Mom. What if I had settled there?
There is a real danger here. If we keep looking back at all our shortcomings when we fall—we might just dwell there. And worse, we may not ever move forward.
It happened in a place called Sodom and with an unnamed woman who was Lot’s wife. So sinful was their city that the Lord intended to and successfully destroyed it. In God’s mercy however He sent angels to spare the life of Lot and his family.
‘When he hesitated, the men grasped his hand and the hands of his wife and of his two daughters and led them safely out of the city, for the LORD was merciful to them. As soon as they brought them out, one of them said, “Flee for your lives! Don’t look back, and don’t stop anywhere in the plain! Flee to the mountains or you will be swept away!”’ Genesis 19:16-17
Lot’s wife was so caught up in not moving forward that she stayed right where she was. Despite the guidance, hand holding and firm directions from the divine, she looked back.
‘But Lot’s wife looked back, and she became a pillar of salt.’ Genesis 19:26
Her heart; her all; now cold, lifeless and useless. She could no longer pour out love. She could no longer care for and tend to her family. She was rendered completely ineffective.
What could have happened had she held tight and ran into the mercy?
In my walk with the Lord I now know there would have been lessons missed had I not made these mistakes. The reality of sin and its consequences became more real to me. I realized further the truth about the need for a Saviour and forgiveness, and grace. I more deeply relied on the workings of the Holy Spirit to change my heart and actions. And I delved into the Word of God more devotionally.
Had I stayed in my inadequacies without taking my Saviour’s hand and following, I wouldn’t have believed that I could love on and care for other precious ones as a Foster Mom. I would have missed soooo much!!
What’s holding you back, my dear friend?
Scripture talks again about this unnamed woman and in His mercy He reminds us there is so much to gain living our life with Him!
Jesus said, ‘”Remember Lot’s wife! Whoever tries to keep his life will loose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it. “ Luke 17:32-33
Be encouraged to walk forward in the way of mercy and with our God, fulfill His calling on your life! I’ve noticed that He’ll sometimes use those weak spots in us to reveal His glory all the brighter!