Seasons of change are exciting at best and terrifying at worst. What’s usually experienced is all in- between; a rare combination of both hopeful expectation and fear happening at the same time.
Change rattles us. No matter how small the change, like using a new brand of tooth paste, it is noticed. We like familiar; we like consistent; and we like predictable.
Our family is in a season of change; a really, really big change and I, my friends am finding it difficult. I find myself wrestling with old ways of thinking and believing as we embark on this next season. I want to cling to the past of what was because it’s familiar, consistent and predictable.
After 5 years of homeschooling our daughters, it is our belief that they are to now enter into high school outside of our home.
The questions and worries abound. Are they prepared? Will they succeed? Are my babies going to be ok?!?!!
And then, what will I do? How will I continue to serve my Lord, my family and my community? For the past 5 years I have been a stay-at-home homeschooling Mom. My life has been enveloped by this lifestyle. I have loved this time; this way of life.
It is easy for me to think about all the things that could go wrong as we forge ahead into this change. It is not hard to expect failure, anticipate disappointment and believe in a dreadful outcome.
There was a time when we started to homeschool and that was new. It was a huge change to our once two-income, work-outside-the-home, public-school-going-girl, family. And the doubts and worries existed then too.
On the other side of that adventure we know full well that we experienced God in ways we wouldn’t have had we not entered into that change in obedience to God’s will for our family. We experienced God in amazing, incredible and new ways. We saw His provision when it could’t come from anywhere else. We knew His peace when our circumstances funneled into chaos. And even though we spent most days; all days together, we loved each other deeper with a love that poured from Him. A bolder faith was grown and birthed a new calling; fostering.
We experienced what Priscilla on page 143 describes, “Every time He leads us to a place of total surrender, with everything offered up to Him for His use, what we’re really seeing is the work of God, because He alone is able to make that kind of change in this kind of heart. He alone can turn our kind of problems into the most incredible kind of worship.”
To Him be all the glory!! Not us.
And although I wrestle with these doubts I admit I am also so very excited!! For my precious ones. For me. For our family.
A big change? Yes! But as I pray, I choose to see, “It’s a glory maker, not a troublemaker.” (p. 143)
For it’s in these times; these seasons where God has an opportunity to shine!
“But when our eyes look through our prayer requests and see not only a chance for personal relief but also an opening for God to burst forth in well-deserved glory, we’re speaking the language of His heart. We’re letting this problem or issue do what God wanted it to accomplish all along when He allowed it into our lives—to showcase His ability, to spotlight His strength, to invite the healing showers of His sustained glory.” (p. 142)
So, we’ll see you on the other side, friends. I cannot wait to share with you all He has done as we continue to step in faith in obedience to Him!!!
Now to Him who is able to do exceeding abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen Ephesians 3:20-21